So this blog is by me, Kim, because I thought it would be fun to get personal…and also in writing this, remind myself of how life is always working out. My life has a way, and I’m sure when you look at yours you will agree that it is true for you too…of just working out. Sometimes I have to be squeezed up against a wall and just before I ‘pop’ the answer comes. Sometimes I ignore the answer for months and months because I think, “it can’t be that simple”. Sometimes I think I play hide and seek from myself on purpose just to make it interesting.
Anyway, I had been trying meditation for several months before I met Anthony because I was ready for a new ‘me’. I wanted to find a new wholeness that came from within. Most of my life I have let others dictate what was the right path for me. I grew up very religious and I was on a path of shedding belief systems that were handed down to me, but not truly mine. They never felt like they ‘fit’ no matter how hard I tried to push it. After letting go of so much, I was a little lost for a minute as I needed to focus new and different to find or better said, build my own beliefs. Beliefs that would actually serve me rather than tear me apart from who I really wanted to be. It was in the 6th month of this new journey that I met Anthony. And even though it was initially because of an ‘accident’, it was NO accident!
I spilled seltzer on my brand new Mac book Pro laptop and found out that Anthony knew a thing or two about computers.(The girl who does my hair, Alex, also had been doing Anthony’s hair for the last 15 years and she got us in touch with each other). So we met at the hair salon on a day he was in town to get his ‘do’ done. We set up a station in the back and he had a contraption to see if my hard drive was still ok even though the computer was fried. I remember kneeling down next to him as he focused on the issue at hand. I felt immediate energy on a visceral level. Something new and yet it felt like I knew him forever. We decided to go out and have dinner after that and this night was the beginning of a deep friendship. We were both in the same place. We both were deep in our own growth and yet the possibility of finding someone who supported that individual path while walking beside each other and even sometimes being willing to walk another way knowing we were still ‘there’ was deep and thrilling and intense. It was the first relationship where we didn’t have this ‘need’ to agree on everything. I actually got to think my own way and yet our differences actually inspired new ideas.
Within the first month, I started waking up in the middle of the night with melodies and lyrics and I would record them in my phone. The creative beauty of that falling in love place…mixed with a brand new feeling of strength and knowing and spiritual healing. Every one of the songs that you will hear are from this place. A place of love. A place of empowerment. A place of knowing.
I had an intense crush on Johnny Cash when I was little. I wanted to marry him. His wife’s last name was Carter and so was mine! I thought it made total sense. Except that I was only 5 years old! I also have always had a thing about knights. Knights are, to me, romantic and allowing and poetic and free and loyal and their true power is within. Johnny Cash was a type of renegade in his day. He did what he felt from his heart and put his middle finger out to those who judged him rather than bend to please. Anthony is, to me, this combination. I am enamoured by anyone who is able to stand their ground and be who they are without apology. And when that same person allows me to be who I am without apology, knowing that when I find wholeness I am better in the relationship…well…that’s what KimAnthy is.
Two whole people who decided to hybrid their name because it sounds cool and we need a name for this project! Two whole people who became a ‘We’ because it’s fun to be a we. I hope that as our music unfolds that anyone who wants to listen will be uplifted and feel a little better. I wrote these songs, really, for myself. They resonate with me. And it just makes sense to share them, why not?
Not all of them are sappy love songs. But all of them are very much me. This is a personal project for me, unlike the Kimmy Schwimmy project which was for children. Anthony takes my melodies and ideas and we sit on the couch with an acoustic guitar and he finds the chords and rhythms that go best with what I am bringing. We shape the music around acoustic, but after we run up to the studio and Anthony lays down the first acoustic tracks and bass and drums…I then leave the room so he can be alone to find his magic with his electric guitar(s). He has a spiritual relationship with his guitars, and I totally respect it. When I went downstairs the night he was recording the guitar parts for Kiss Your Face, I was laying on the couch with a fire going and said out loud, ” I’m in heaven right now”.
We are all creators. Some create music. Some create fried chicken. But when we are in that process of creating something from seemingly nothing, and watching it unfold, or in our case hearing it, there is nothing quite like it. Whether you enjoy our music or not is not so much the point. Yes, of course, I want you to! But nothing can take away the moments of pure joy I had in the creative process of this music.
Oh wow. I’m at 994 words!! Haha. I’ve never “blogged” before. I have no idea what I am doing. I just wanted to write something personal because I am ready. I am me and we are we.
Kim from KimAnthy, over and out…with love…